Dear younger me,
I know you’re scared right now. Everyone is telling you that you are going to make the biggest mistakes of your life. Hold fast and follow your gut instincts. There are dark times ahead but the biggest thing I want you to know is on those darkest days following those darkest nights, we do come out on the other side. Do not give up the fight though I know you wish you could.
Nothing matters outside yourself, opinions and unwelcome advice, none of it. You will find your way. Don’t be so hard on yourself that your goals aren’t being accomplished quickly enough. There is plenty of time left. You are battling against more than you realize. Do not let others downplay the struggles and do not let them sweep your work under the rug.
That child you carry will be the light you need to keep going and his father will be the one constant, a rock to keep you grounded when you need it the most. You will take things for granted, so I won't tell you not to, but try to appreciate them out loud when you come to the realization.
Your twenties are not the end all and be all of your life. There are much bigger and better things ahead, surprises and new dreams to compliment the old ones. The fight will become less difficult and you will jokingly refer to your twenties as the dark ages. So please just hold tight through this. Enjoy your baby and enjoy the light where you can find it. It will all feel like nothing more than a bad dream on the other side of it.
There is so much potential and happiness where you will end up.
Sincerely,
30 year old me
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